He stared at it in the dim green glow of the dashboard lights. It wasn’t a trophy. It was a transaction. He had traded pieces of his body and a fleeting ugly glimpse into his past for a piece of copper and iron.
He put the truck in gear and pulled out onto the empty county highway. The headlights cut a weak yellow cone through the darkness. The cicadas were still screaming. The next morning the sky was the color of bruised iron.
A heavy summer storm was brewing threatening to soak the fields before he could get the wheat cut. Clayton stood at the parts counter of O’Reilly Auto sipping a Styrofoam cup of black coffee that tasted like burnt plastic. He moved stiffly every shift in weight sending a jolt of pain through his side. “Got it right here, Clayton,” Gary, the parts manager, said hauling a heavy cardboard box onto the counter.
“Remanufactured alternator for the John Deere. That’ll be $482 even.” Gary looked up noticing the dark purple bruise blooming across Clayton’s cheekbone and the stiff awkward way he held his left arm. “You take a spill off the tractor, James?” Clayton pulled the five crumpled hundred-dollar bills from his pocket and laid them flat on the counter. “Something like that.
Tripped over a stump in the dark.” “Got to watch your step,” Gary chuckled ringing up the transaction and counting out $18 in change. “Getting too old to be bouncing off the dirt.” “Yeah,” Clayton muttered sliding the box toward his chest. “Too old.” An hour later, Clayton was back under the harsh glaring lights of his own barn. The smell of grease, diesel, and ozone filled the air.
He wrestled the heavy alternator into the cramped engine bay of the combine. It was agonizing work. Every time he had to torque a bolt, his fractured rib ground against the surrounding muscle. Sweat stung his eyes, mixing with the grease on his face.
He didn’t feel victorious. He didn’t feel like a man who had humbled a bully. He just felt like a farmer racing a thunderstorm. He tightened the final mounting bolt, groaning as a sharp spasm hit his back.
He connected the wiring harness, the plastic clips snapping into place with a satisfying definitive click. Clayton wiped his hands on a greasy rag, leaving the black stains right where they had been yesterday. He climbed up into the cab of the massive green machine. He settled into the worn operator seat, turning the ignition key.
The diesel engine roared to life on the first crank. The voltage meter on the dashboard immediately pegged to a healthy 14 volts. The new alternator hummed underneath the floorboards, a steady, even mechanical vibration. Clayton sat there for a long moment, listening to the rhythmic chug of the engine.
He looked out through the dusty windshield at the 30 acres of golden wheat swaying in the rising wind. He reached down, put the combine into gear, and drove out into the field. The work was waiting. It always was.
END