Dozens of names appeared in the case by the end, and they did not all have the same outcome. That was the hardest thing for the public to understand, and the most important. Some defendants went to prison, for real time, for the structure they built and the people they hurt. Some received shorter sentences, because their roles were smaller, or because they cooperated, or because the evidence against them supported a lesser charge and not a greater one. Several cooperated, and their cooperation helped prove the larger case, and the law treats cooperation as a fact, not as a favor. Some counts were dismissed, because the evidence did not hold up, or because a witness became unavailable, or because a charge that looked strong in a file looked weaker in a courtroom. One defendant was acquitted of the most serious charge but convicted of lesser conduct, and that verdict, which some people called a failure, was actually the system working exactly as it should. A jury looked at the evidence, believed part of it, did not believe all of it, and said so.
Due process did not weaken accountability. It made the result worth believing. I want to say that as plainly as I can, because it is the sentence I came back to, over and over, during the slow year, when people asked me why it was taking so long, and why not everyone was in prison, and why the case did not end the way a television case ends. A case that cuts corners to get a faster result is a case that can be undone, and a case that is undone helps no one, least of all the families who waited years for someone to take their stories seriously. A case that follows the rules, that charges only what it can prove, that lets a jury acquit on one count and convict on another, is a case that stands up afterward, when the headlines are gone and the lawyers have moved on. The families deserved a result that would stand. So did the residents who were still living behind those gates, and who needed to know that the people who had hurt them were held accountable by a process they could trust, not by a spectacle they could only watch.
By the end of that year, I was tired in a way that had nothing to do with my shoulder, though my shoulder still ached when the weather changed. I was tired the way you get tired when you have carried a story for a long time and you finally set it down in front of people who know what to do with it. But I was not hopeless, and I was not angry in the cold, precise way I had been angry on my lawn. The slow year had taught me something I already knew but had needed to feel again: that evidence, gathered patiently, and charges, filed carefully, and trials, held fairly, add up to something that a baton and a fake badge never can. They add up to an answer. Not every answer. Not the answer to every question Raymond had carried in his accordion file for two years. But an answer that could be believed, by the families, by the residents, by a jury, and, eventually, by me.
Denise kept the house steady through all of it, the way she had kept hospital rooms steady for thirty-four years. She made coffee in the morning, and she answered the questions she could answer. Kayla kept going to volleyball practice, and kept serving the way she always served, hard and accurate, and when reporters or curious neighbors asked her about her grandfather, she gave them the short version and then went back to her life, because she was fourteen and then fifteen and her life was bigger than one morning on a lawn. Derek came home between rotations whenever he could, and he sat on the porch with me, and we did not always talk about the case. Sometimes we talked about the Scout, and about fishing, and about ordinary things, and those conversations were part of the recovery too, because a man who only talks about the worst morning of his year is a man who is still lying on the grass.